Et tu, Brutus?

Dear Reader. Here's the lowdown. The skinny if you will. MalloryMallory and I went to Kalebs house this evening(yesterday, really. Say about ten thirty) in order for me to get the next book in this series he's got me hooked on and so that MalloryMallory wasn't just driving aimlessly, wasting gas. So, we arrive and the roommates let me pass and all that jazz. Kaleb is playing COD ( I will NEVER understand) with his buddies (Man Night) and I'm sitting there chatting when it hits me. HE'S SUPER FANTASTIC. I mean, I'm there, with one of my friends, just smacking him in the face (intentionally) with my ponytail and he's ignoring it and letting me and at the same time, totally loving it. That would have driven Kain up the wall. There were all these things I couldn't do that are open to me now. His mom wants to meet me. His sisters like me (And wont try to get with my ex's), we communicate openly and see each other regularly. So, I think I'm going to go for it. I know, I know. I can see the scene now. You pull me aside and ask, "but, haven't you already gone for it?" "Well, in a way, yes. But love, I was terribly frightened of losing Kain." "Hadn't you lost him?" "Yes. Physically. But the idea of him. You must understand that memories are tangible and entrancing. I don't need them though. Kain has given me more memories and they're unpleasant. More unpleasant than the good ones can outweigh." "Oh" "Exactly. So for now, Dear Reader, we plunge into the deep end" *Inner monologue head tilt* "A slow motion plunge, if it pleases you."